I’ve started and deleted this post several times over the past day and a half. I know people want updates about Beth’s modeling adventures but I just didn’t have the ummph to write about it. Yesterday I spent the day in my jammies, being overly emotional, and glued to my phone waiting for updates from Beth while she traveled around NY. What was supposed to be a short little 2 day trip with 1 or 2 meetings has drastically changed and I’m still coming to terms with these new developments. Part of me feels tricked, sure 2 days no problem, that’s not a big deal, certainly I can handle letting her go away for 2 days. Well 2 days has changed and now she doesn’t even have a return flight. That’s great for Beth, that means everyone is loving what they’re seeing. They love it so much that she is now casting for shows for fashion week. She is doing what she wanted to do all along. Beth loves walking in runway shows, she has only done small shows in St. Louis but she really loves it. If she could actually walk in NY fashion week that would be a dream come true. That’s really what we were working towards, I just thought I would be better prepared, that I would know it was coming. I should have learned by now that everything in the modeling world is wait, wait, wait, NOW!
So now I’m feeling the same way I felt when Daniel went away to college. This is it, this is everything we raise our kids for, so they can leave the nest and be out on their own, but I didn’t know it was happening when I sent her away for a 2 day trip. She’s never going to be completely home again. She’s got NY in her blood, Columbus can’t compare to NY, no city can compare to NY. If you love being in big cities you understand and both Beth and I, do love big cities.